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I don’t know if I’d have the balls to do it, quit a job I was qualified for just because it didn’t fulfill my needs. I’m way too focused on paying my bills, but according to The Wall Street Journal women in Japan are far more likely to quit a career if it’s unrewarding to them.

A whopping 74% of Japanese women with degrees voluntarily quit their jobs, far more than the 31% of Americans, according to a new study from the Center from Work-Life Policy, a New York-based think tank. But the more alarming figure is yet to come: The study released Friday called “Off-Ramps and On-Ramps Japan: Keeping Talented Women on the Road to Success,” shows that nearly half of working women in Japan throw in the towel because they feel their careers are in a chokehold. Meanwhile, compared with 74% of women in the U.S. and 82% in Germany, just 32% of Japanese women leave the workforce for childcare-related reasons, though the gap may be attributed to the smaller pool of working mothers in Japan compared to Western countries.

And, we’re not just talking food service workers, we’re talking qualified women with degrees! I absolutely couldn’t do it, I’d be too scared, and their economy is suffering for it apparently but still – have to give them credit for doing what’s right for them!

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While I admit to being a pain in the butt, I’m usually a not-so-awful person. I’m not the kind of person who should be consistantly smacked down by the evil-to-me forces of Karma, but I am for some reason.

For those of you who emailed me asking what happened yesterday, Beautiful Sin was hacked (along with everything else on the server) by someone who seems to just hack for the glory of it (is there even glory in hacking?). I thought that was the poopy tail end of a bad week, but it wasn’t. But I’m bringing you in on the last curtain, let me set up what happened.

Someone who followed Josh on twitter was introduced to me. From day one you could tell this girl was crazy insane, every little thing with her is a drama and she is ALWAYS drunk. Well, I figured she just needed a friend and I tried being nice to her. Didn’t work. Since the tail end of March, every single time I’ve talked to her she’s accused me of everything from making fun of her (never did) to selling her out (to who, how, what?).

She’s not just accusing me, see, she seems to do this to everyone she ever meets – ever. She told me at length that a former friend of hers was so horrible, and all of the awful things they did to her (all turn out to be lies), then tells me about ANOTHER friend who does horrible things to her – and victim, victim, victim. Then this week she tries to ‘pimp’ one of our forums on another forum, which leads her to say that we think we’re better than the other forum (not true) and that we think they’re crazy and we’re scared of them (wtf?) – and we had no idea she was saying that until one of the forum members, who knows we’re not like that, copied what she wrote and posted it so we could read it in case she deleted it (which she did – does that a lot, too).

Well we didn’t immediately jump to her defense and delete what he wrote, so she flew into a rage and posted a long blog about how we sold her out and we’re crazy (yeah WE are crazy, not her?). She even called this other poster a liar over and over and then expected us to apologise to her publicly after the twitter war she started. I’m starting to wonder how she finds the knob to get out of the house in the morning.

After all that was over the sites got hacked (like, immediately), I just get it sorted and go to sleep. When I wake up I find out that Laota‘s PC won’t boot and she has no idea why, so that became my all comsuming whatnot of the day.

Only two good things to come out of the week: Got paid, finally, too bad it all went to bills. Oh and Katie added me to MSN!



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Pasta sauce is convenient these days. What used to take hours, sometimes days, now takes only the few minutes necessary to open up a can of red sauce and heat it up on the stove top. It would be great, delicious even, if Ben didn’t continually buy Hunt’s pasta sauce.

What’s wrong with Hunt’s? Is it cheap? Well, not bad at $1.10 per can. Is it red? It’s very red, there are even scales of redness. Is it sauce? Technically, yes, it is sauce. Is it tasty? Okay, herein lies the problem. Hunt’s pasta sauce is bland, bitter and tastes a bit like the sauce they put on canned ravioli. There’s no sweet, savory love like you get with Prego (I believe it really is in there), and no fruity, juicy goodness like you’d get with a similarly sized, 20 cent cheaper can of Del Monte which, incidentally, is my choice in cheap pasta sauces.

So how do we remedy this? Apparently it’s surprisingly easy. Here’s what you need:

1/2 can of Hunt’s pasta sauce
1/4 lb of browned ground beef
Sea salt and ground black pepper to taste
2 T clover honey

Basically, after you brown your ground beef you stir in your spices and pasta sauce over medium-low heat until the sauce barely starts to heat up. Pour in your honey and stir it in slowly. Keep stirring with the heat on for about 5 or 6 minutes, or until the sauce is thoroughly heated. Serve over your favorite pasta!

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I can’t believe I’m going to be passing on Halloween. We’ll hand out candy, obviously, but we don’t have near enough time to even carve Pumpkin Chan. Thank you Mom, The Boy and Hubby for sucking up all of our time – appreciate it!

For your viewing pleasure HL isn’t gone – I bet you thought it would be, didn’t you? I did, but that’s because I’m broke and it’s renewal came up. How, pray tell, did I avoid losing it like I lost Shibuya? My best of all bestest buds Natalie renewed it for the year along with a few others I was about to lose, on account of she’s the greatest.

Thank you Natalie for being an awesome friend!

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Well my camera’s not working, and even when it was I couldn’t figure out how to control the blasted thing which meant fuzzy pictures on a good day, badly lit ones on a bad. Half of the photos here are from a mobile phone, which was the only way to get a semi clear picture!

On top of that I just find myself working too much to really get into blogging what little food I do make, which is a shame actually. With no room down here (hopefully will change once I’m moved), bad lighting, no usable camera and no money to buy food, I’m sorry to say that this blog is boring even to me, lol.

It’s just as well, really, because I’m in one of those no food slumps and because of that I may start posting recipe-related articles with no photos because I’m not actually making the dishes. Here’s to hoping the camera and food situations get better!

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Well my new found baby brother is not just stalking me on the interwebs (which is silly, considering I live DOWNSTAIRS and he could just go DOWNSTAIRS and find me, lol), but he’s also officially 20 years old today. Unfortunately for him, that means he’s old enough to legally sell on the black market which, as I’m sure you know, has been acquired by the Walt Disney Corporation.

Mike was also nice enough to share some of his birthday pizza with us last night, which was much appreciated since we’re entirely out of food again (you’d think I’d be thinner with how little I eat and how much I walk, but alas I was meant to be a bacon-fryer’s wet dream). It was nice to be full after so much emptiness, to know pizza after so much un-pizza, to find that a fat lady who wants pizza would find her prayers had been answered. Can that not be called happiness?

Okay enough sillies. Happy Birthday, Douchey! I hope all of the bad things in life happen to you and to no one else!



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Betty's Oatmeal Chocolate Chip Cookies

The Boy isn’t here right now (yay!) so we’re celebrating by trying out a cookie mix we got on sale for 90 cents at Hy-Vee. It’s an oatmeal, chocolate chip situation from Betty Crocker and it turned out sooo delish! If only we weren’t running low on milk… As always, more pics on Flickr (sidebar)! I’m not usually a mix girl (though I have gotten into the nostalgia of Jiffy lately!), but times being what they are it’s cheaper than scratch!

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Shrimp Souper Meal

From a few days ago, a giant shrimp flavored ramen soup cup called Souper Meal, which I’ve never had before the Dollar General opened. Very tastey! It’s got a ‘flavor enhancer’ which tastes like olive oil and garlic, and really does a number on the broth. Good buy for 99 cents!

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Cheap and Delicious SPAM Fried Rice

Even though it’s brutally hot and humid, our meal for today is a delicimous concoction that vaguely resembles fried rice. If you don’t like SPAM, I don’t understand your language, because this is a dream to make.

Granted, we don’t have the money for SPAM so we had to get the half-priced Luncheon Meat (any generic discount SPAM or canned ham will do in a pinch!) we so affectionately refer to as Lint Loaf in our house. It’s really no comparison to SPAM, but it’s fairly good and it works well in this recipe!

Heat up your pan or wok to medium on a gas range and melt a tablespoon of real butter. Toss in the following:

1/2 Small White Onion – chopped
1 Clove Garlic – crushed

Saute until the onion starts to get transparent, then pour in:

1/2 C of filtered water (necessary out here in the boonies)
1.2 Bag of Frozen Peas
1 Packet Ramen Noodle Seasoning (your flavor choice)
2 tsp. Shoyu / Soy Sauce
1/2 Can of Lint Loaf / SPAM – Cubed

Stir gently, if you stir too hard the SPAM will become mushy and fall apart. Heat for 2-3 minutes.

Fold in:

3 C of Cooked Rice

Until thoroughly coated. Scoop out into a bowl and enjoy! I personally like mine with a liberal shake or two of white pepper and a couple of make-shift spring rolls. Don’t forget the green chai tea!

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Chocolate Chip Cookie Bento

Trying this one more time – my plugin made my related posts go haywire! Had a great dinner of fakey bento proportions. We only had $1.50 to our name so instead of buying things we need, we hauled off and bought cookies which we had with warm milk tea. Mine are in my Buffalo Wings take home container, which works as a sort of not so cute bento but fun none the less!

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I’ve been tooling around and thinking today while I work, and random snippets of the web that I’ve encountered over the last few years have moved themselves in a slide show behind my eyes and I’ve come to a weird conclusion. I don’t like free blogs. Free from advertising, I mean. I just don’t like them.

I know a lot of people will disagree with me, but I’ve never been fond of blogs where the webmaster will dictate to the readers what they should think and how they should live their lives. I’m all for differing opinions, and your blog is yours — don’t ever let anyone tell you any different. I just don’t have to go to your blog.

So if your blog tends to be the head up the ass type I’m referring to, then that’s your business. But your business, especially the last few years, seems to be to tell other bloggers and even your readers what to do, and let’s be honest, all that does is form a line behind you of people who agree with you so that you won’t target them, and a line in the sand in front of you for everyone who doesn’t agree with you to stand behind so that you can exclude them from your world. Much as that sounds like an episode of a bad teen soap opera, it also doesn’t sound like good eats.

When I go to blogs I go to hear their opinions on religion, politics, art, etc. – things that matter. Personal stories rarely interest me, but that’s not to say they don’t fall into the ‘things that matter’ category. I’m also quite fond of book and film reviews, recipes ( love recipes! ), anything bento – you know, happy fun making stuff. I find, though, that I find most of this happy fun making stuff on blogs that post paid ‘ads’, and I find the shit stuff (this is how you should blog, blah blah blah) on blogs that are vocally opposed to paid ads.

In fact, most of the best, most interesting and fun people I’ve met online in recent years post paid ads. I enjoy their blogs, I find them to be very honest, very hard working and very entertaining and I wouldn’t change them at all. But I also find that if I go to a blog these days that is *not* sporting ads for SocialSpark, PayPerPost, etc. I leave – almost immediately.

And it’s something I don’t do consciously, in fact I only recently noticed that I’ve been X-ing out every non sponsored blog that I got to and I have no idea when it started. I’m guilty of something I hate, and that’s not even giving the blog a chance because I’m afraid that it *might* be one of those blogs that I can’t stand, and I may get halfway through the first post on the page and realize the person is a huge internet bigot with a stick up their ass, and if I read on it’ll only make me mad and I’ll end up blacklisting the site in my mind and there’ll be a fiasco, lol.

I don’t see this changing anytime soon. I like going to fun blogs, I like reading about fun people, I like the carefree and laid back, intelligent and ethical people I’ve met as a result of sticking with paid blogs. I also like the ads, I’ve found out about a lot of things from those ads, including freebies and film reviews, some great products ( seriously, dudes, try FreezeIt, lol ).

There’s no point in the bigotry, and I don’t care to be part of that world, but I can’t help feeling a twinge of guilt because I’ve shut out people I used to like and closed myself off to new people just because they’re doing something I don’t like – and that’s exactly what they did that turned me off to them in the first place. I suppose I’m only human, so let’s call this a happy mistake.



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Bank Rant

Jun. 4th, 2008 08:06 pm
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Well, I’m in a snit. I finally get a payout from Google Adsense for that damn downloads and file hosting site, I take it to the bank and they won’t cash it. They won’t even look up Google Adsense or let me login to my account in front of them to show them that it’s a real place, they don’t care, they just won’t cash it. They even suggested that I may be trying to defraud them – can you believe that?

This isn’t the first problem I’ve had with this bank, when Laota and I walk into the building we get ‘down-the-nose’ looks from everyone, eye rolls, whispers between bank tellers – it’s like being in 7th grade, only I’m not a lot thinner and they are too old to act like this. They’re rude, cocky and up their own asses and if it weren’t for the fact that I can’t help but use their bank because I live in a one-horse town, I’d have switched by now. It annoys me that I have to use a bank to pay my CC and use paypal, I wish I could just pay my CC directly from paypal and use the CC as my only back up funding source.

I’d say this were in my head if it were only Laota and I experiencing it, though I think we catch the brunt because we’re ‘witches’. A lot of people have told me that they feel like the bank employees don’t feel they are good enough to use that bank, and I’m starting to think it’s just how people are out here. They’re so unbelievably full of themselves, they all act ( yes, grown soccer moms ) like you want to be on their varsity cheerleading squad and they don’t want you there, in fact I once watched two helmet haired 40-somethings giggle and whisper about another woman during church.

What’s worse is that Laota and I are automatically bad news because we’re not Christian, and we’re not from this town – that’s two strikes against us. People tell their kids to stay away from our house, there are stories circulating town that we kill cats during sacrifices and we molest children – you heard me right. This is what happens when you live out in the boonies, and I get told all the time that it’s my fault for not just saying I’m Christian and ‘going along to get along’.

Generally this doesn’t bother me, because other than it being annoying and occasionally my feelings get hurt, most of the time it doesn’t really impact my life, but this has to do with my cash flow and I don’t like things interrupting the flow of tampons, shampoo and dish soap in my house.

To be honest, I don’t much care if they think I’m evil, because what they think doesn’t matter ( also it’s kind of funny, lol ) – besides, if they’re grown people who believe in cartoon-style witches then they deserve to be afraid lol – but what pisses me off is that my sister and I are treated like criminals just for not being the same as everyone. We get followed in the store, asked to check our bags and Laota‘s had to check her umbrella before and leave it up at the cash register, we get threatened and harassed by people we’ve never met and it’s resorted to physical vioilence on more than one occasion, we can’t even walk to the store without fear of someone trying to hit us with their car for the umpteenth time.

I actually became friends with a former boyfriend, and current supafriend Jon and some of his friends because they were going through the exact same thing. When I met Jon, he was athletic, tall, decent looking and stylish but he didn’t wear overalls and baseball caps and waste gas cruising around for no reason, and the fact that he wasn’t even from Missouri didn’t help anything. Jeff dealt with that, too, though eventually his Adam Sandler-ness won over some people in town which I’m still amazed by, lol. But we sort of all meshed so well I think partially because we knew what it was like to have our lives threatened on a daily basis.

All that I can deal with, people are going to think and do what they think and do, you can’t change that, but I dislike being treated like shit when I walk into my bank because that messes with my money, which I don’t have much of as it is. They shouldn’t be allowed to do that, honestly, and I don’t like it being implied that I’m some kind of fraud artist because they’re so backwards they’ve never heard of Google before. Seriously, people in town ask you to repeat yourself when you use the word ‘blog’. All of this, of course, after I had to deal with someone cashing fraudulent checks on my and Laota‘s account, and the bank didn’t bother even asking them about it they just up and cashed it – even though the sign-ee wasn’t in either of our names. Ugh, rant! :P



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Laota and I got our very first order from Schwan’s a couple of days ago, and man was it worth the money! First of all, frozen and pre-prepared food isn’t my thing, but with my busy schedual and no transportation ( it’s freezing out there! ), it’s harder and harder for me to go to the grocery storey, because I don’t want to walk a few miles in freezing weather, and if you’ve ever been to Missouri you know the smaller towns don’t have sidewalks most of the time, so you’re going mostly uphill right in the narrow road being passed by jerks who don’t care if they hit you with their pick-up trucks, all just to buy some chicken or milk. Plus, I’m finding it hard to even find time to pack my bento, which I adore doing.

So this is a nice alternative. When Laota and I get off work, it only takes about 10 minutes for us to heat up a meal with main course, side dish and veggie and it cuts down on mess so we don’t spend quite as much time with dishes. They even gave us a free 2 and a half pound tray of sweet and sour chicken with pineapple and peppers over rice because we’re new customers. How cool is that?

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Argh, do I have to live so far away from a Daiso? Is it really necessary that there be no outlet near me at any point in my life where I may purchase my beloved bento whatnot’s whenever I want to without having to pay shipping?

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t dislike using the likes of eBay stores like The Bento Store and Tokyo Gift to get my bento wares, but it would be nice to save the money plus be able to replace things that may get damaged, and now I’m just going to whine forever and ever, lol.

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Hope everyone had a great holiday season, I’ve still got 6 pagan holidays, New Years and Chinese New Year to look forward to so I’m still truckin’, lol. The nice thing about being a heathen, well amongst other nice things, is that we really never run out of holidays and so I can buy stupid things I don’t need ( hah, as if I don’t need the entire Enchanted Worlds collection! :P ) and call them holiday purchases, lol. I seriously need to make more cash, though, I rarely actually buy anything, so everything I DO buy I feel bad for buying, but since it’s the holidays I tried to put that out of my mind so I could indulge in presents for friends and family.

I may be working in the capital, though, come this spring or summer. They have an assistant job open that pays upwards of 30 large a year, maybe 35 depending on who, exactly, I work for. Either way it’s over triple what I make now, for less work, and I’ve practically been promised the job so, it’s just a matter of transportation.



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I’ve decided I don’t like people who don’t like PayPerPost. No, wait, let me correct that – I hate people who are vocal enough in their hatred of PPP that they harass people who use it. I’ve noticed, since I’ve been active in the PPP community, that a fair amount of Posties get a fair bit of hate on a regular basis, and it makes me wonder if non Posties can really be so full of themselves, preachy, up their own asses AND have nothing to do all day all at the same time?

As some of you already know, I’m sure, I’ve decided to distance myself from the Web Haters in recent months. I think it’s ridiculous to scrutenize others for hours on end based solely on the stupid notion that, according to the rules you’ve set for yourself in your own mind, you’ve convinced yourself that you’re superior to them.

If someone’s coding isn’t 100% valid, they suck. If someone uses a more fan-ish style of design, rather than the more elitist approved ‘defaultism’ style that looks quite a bit like the default wordpress layout, they blow. If they don’t agree with you, they are not worthwhile. If they don’t spell perfectly, they should be dehumanized. They use PayPerPost? They should just kill themselves.

I’m all for everyone doing their own thing, and having their own opinions, but it’s a bit on the stupid side to become Peter, Paul and Mary whenever someone doesn’t agree with you to the point of mental slavery. It shows such a want of attention and validation that, were it not so hilarious, would actually be a bit painful to witness.

It actually amazes me that people are so narrow minded that they assume that if paid for your opinion you’d have no other choice than to blatantly lie. These people haven’t taken the time to check out PPP to see how it works, they seem to not realize that you don’t have to take any opportunities that you don’t want to take – you don’t have to take any at all, if you don’t want to. PPP has also been adamant to all Posties that they want blogs with good, real and original content and they don’t want any PPP sponsored posts to be in any way false advertising, in fact you can get benched or banned by an advertiser for that. But why check out the program and learn neat, shiny facts when you can slander it and terrorize it’s users?

I’ve heard all the arguments against blogging for profit, including one mention of it being whoring yourself out, and I haven’t heard one good reason to can it. Let me explain something. Everyone has to make money, and those of us using PPP are people who go to regular jobs, work long hours and still need help with the bills. Not everyone gets paid a decent hourly wage, and for people like me who have special circumstances PPP has become a way to afford small treasures like food and toilet paper, and hopefully a new garbage can with wheels and a lid. The fact that there are people out there who feel it their duty, not to mention a good chance to grab attention, to make those of us who do this work – and it is work, thanks, – regret the day we were born is so stupid and childish. Don’t you get enough attention in your everyday life? Is it really so important to be faux scandalized and ‘make a stand’ against shit that doesn’t concern you? Why don’t YOU go get a job? Or are you too busy being an arrogant, swaggering, common piece of trash all day? I can see how that would take up a lot of your time.

Notably, I don’t have any beef against those who just don’t want PPP on their own sites, because who gives a rats ass if you bitch on your own site? I don’t, I doubt anyone else does unless they’ve got a hard on for your precious approval. Everyone’s welcome to their opinion, it’s when your opinion crosses over into the comments and tag boards of other blogs that you and I have a situation. I’m in awe that it really doesn’t happen to me, lol.



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Well, I’ve just joined up over at Blogvertise, which is a blogger-driven marketing service in which bloggers, like moi, get the opportunity to review products and services from advertisers and give our honest opinions about them on our personal blogs.

I’m excited about this, because a lot of pay-to-blog services require only one hundred percent positive posting which is why I refused to join many said websites that I’d been to, simply because I’m not going to lie to my visitors – and Blogvertise doesn’t want me to, either. They’re website claims that I, the blogger, may post whatever I want to post about the product, service, ect. that I’m asked to post about, which means if it’s something I’m ethically against I can say that, if I love it I can say that to, if I think it’s dangerous, if I don’t like the color, if it seems impractical or even too practical – I can say whatever I think and still make money for my opinion. How can you beat that? Not even with a stick, that’s how, lol.

Of course, I am given a time limit in which to complete these opportunities, so I do have some restrictions but I’m not all that worried about that – I’ve got a lot of sheer determination, and that’s easily the best spice for someone starting out in a venture like this. Wish me luck!

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Ohh, this is neat – I’m checking out envelope printing from Envelope Printing Online. They’ve got a decent selection, a bit on the small side for an online printer, and the prices are pretty good for anyone who – like me – doesn’t live anywhere near a Kinkos but could still use a service like this. Overall it’s a nifty site, my only complaint is that their selection is very corporate, and I don’t blame them at all for that. I’m sure corporations are their number one customer, but they do run a business online and if they’re going to compete they’re going to have to branch out into more fun, artsy and even cute designs to keep up with the big boys like Vista Print. It’s a nice site, though, and they’re definately worth checking out. I may refer my boss there, the designs look like they’re right up his alley. :D



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Well, it’s official – today is My Birthday Eve. Pay out, PayPerPost, I’d like a cake, lol. I know, I know, it’s sad that I’ve got to buy my own birthday cake – but it’s something I chose to do, and I’m a damn good baker so I could, technically, bake my own if I wanted to but I want to buy a nine dollar ice cream cake. It’s generic, but it’s good – strawberry shortcake with white chocolate decoration on the top and berry cream ice cream. I’m too old to be obsessing over cake, lol. But, I’m of the mind that I’d like one decent birthday, and this is the first year I’ve had in twenty years that I haven’t had to share ( meaning give ) my celebration to my stepdad. The awful jackass.

See, his birthday was the day before mine so I’d get a piece of cake but I couldn’t blow out the candles, he’d get the cards, he’d get the presents, he’d get pampered and I was expected to be one of the people who did the pampering. I can’t tell you how many times I was the one who baked his cake, bought him presents, made him dinner, cleaned up after him – because my birthday didn’t matter. I know it’s kind of childish to whine about it now, since most people consider birthdays to be something that only children get excited about, but I spent my birthdays until I was seventeen being silently envious and hurt by it. In fact he dominated my mother and Laota‘s birthday celebrations, too, and Christmas, Thanksgiving, Mother’s and Father’s days, school events, church events – if there was attention to be paid, he wanted it paid to him and no one else. He was like a vicious, jealous, mean child and he’d get violent if he didn’t get what he wanted, when he wanted.

After a certain point in my life, though, I think I just accepted it and fell into a life of mundane repetition – no opinions, no backtalk, no promise of a better life. And awful as it is to say, in the months that he’s been gone my life has taken an upswing – it’s not a good life, I’m still landlocked and holding down four jobs with literally almost no pay ( we’re talking maybe $200 a month, if that ), and were it not for PayPerPost, I’d literally have nothing. At least I can afford a cake this year, and, for once, it’s happy birthday to me.



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SupaRant

Oct. 11th, 2007 12:59 am
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So, I want chicken. No, that was not random. Okay, yes it was, but the lack of protein in my diet is driving me crazy, lol. Don’t get me wrong, rice, ramen, frozen veggies and tea have served me well, and they’re cheap which is the point of eating them for every meal, but at the same time they get really old after awhile and there comes a point in time when you’d all but murder someone who was holding a Subway sandwhich just to get at the roast beef, lol.

On top of this meat situation my throat is killing me and I don’t know if I’ve caught a cold or it’s allergies, and I’m really hoping it’s the latter because I can’t forsee being able to buy generic topcare dayquil anytime soon, and that’s really the only thing that works on me. I’d love it to death if people out here would wash their hands on occasion or, I don’t know, not cough right in a stranger’s face in the check out line at the grocery store, but apparently I don’t get that consideration.

Not like being able to breathe through my nose in Missouri is any big whoop, because at some point the state beefed and it’s been lingering in the air ever since. It never goes away, a mixture smell of ass and stupid, rotating scents like those air fresheners that have two scents that keep switching so you always notice the fragrance. Only it’s ass. Various shades of, even, and it never goes away.



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